“I thought of changing my hairstyle to hers,
then I thought of getting a piercing like that of the other.
What if I adapt her dressing sense,
Let me tattoo my body parts as she got it
What if I dye my hair brown, will they then look at me like I am wearing a crown.”
Many such thoughts crossed my mind and I catered them all.
One day I stood in front of the mirror tall.
“Who are you?” It yelled at me.
“A part of every girl they turn their head towards.” I sobbed.
“And you lost yourself totally apart.” I thought.
“You let go your soft curls and charming smile just to grab a look for a while?
What are you doing to yourself?” I asked.
“I don’t know, I was seeking attention, I guess.” The inner self replied.
“Got enough?” I mocked.
I just sat by the wall and thoughts occured,”Whose enthrallment am I trying to seek? Why am I losing myself for people unknown to keep?”
While finding the answers that were already known, a few people told me things unheard.
“You are beautiful!” someone said, the one who matters to me the most.
So, why to give up on myself when I have people who love the real me the most.
Realization has hit and has hit a bit harder but one thing I understood that it is the soul that at last, matters!